Maybe its me

I don't have very many friends and the ones i consider friends are slowly disappearing. Maybe that's because I have changed. I don't want to deal with childish shit anymore or stupidity. I'm sick of all the drama that comes with having friends I have enough going on in my own life I don't need to deal with your repeat mistakes. I'm like "Holy Fuck" how many times can the same person make the same mistakes before they man up to their choices. I may seem selfish because I'm being honest about being sick of dealing with the same BS from the same people for years. I'm drawing my line. I'll be the bad guy go ahead tell the world how mean I am and make sure not to let people know how bad of a person you really are. Have fun in your fake world of lies. I'm better off with less people in my life. The truth is you changed into an evil egotistical self absorbed bunch of bitches and I don't need people like that in my life. I have no issue cutting people out of my life when they have done me wrong. This may make me look like a heartless bitch but the truth is I cared more then you did for me and I'm sick of these one sided friendships. I'm cutting off this life line you burned the last part of this bridge learn to live with that. Peace out!











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Bridges A Flame

My last blog might have been a little hurtful to some people. I want you all to know I no longer will be handing out advice to those I don't think can handle it. So I hope you the best in your lives and I hope the lies the fake people in your live give you make you happy. I am happy with my life and I am happy to say I found the one person in the world that truly loves me for me and I love him for him. I hope all my friends the same happiness in their lives no matter what they need to get it. I just want everyone to know that I tried my best for many years to be a honest friend that would tell you like it is even if that may hurt you. Does that sound like a bad or good thing to you? Well if you are the one that said it was a bad thing you are in luck because I am done giving you my unwanted advice and support. All I have ever did was try to make you realize that you are great in your own way and that you should never let others take that away from you. I have watched many of you let people bring you down or watch you lie to yourself about who and what you are, and when I gave you my much needed advice and support you took advantage of it or you turned your back. We are still friends but things have changed between all of us. This blog my seem a little dramatic to some but it is my honest opinion and views on everything. No one is perfect but you can only let people walk on you for so long before you can't take it any more. Bridges are on fire and on the verge of being burnt and I have no intentions of putting out the flames. This is not the next chapter in my life this is the end of that story and the beginning of a brand new book. Goodbye to all the fake people hello to the unknown. Whoever tags along I won't stop but that doesn't mean you belong here remember that. Think of all the things in the past that we have done for each other and how one sided it was. I never expected anyone to give as much as me I just wish you didn't take as much as you did. I have said this before and I will say it again I can not continue to help people that can't help themselves. Every time I think I helped you out of a hole you dig a new one and dive in head first. You are your own worst enemy and until you can learn to help yourself stop running around with your hand out. I am not the only person that feels this way and other people will get sick of helping you if you don't grow up. We are not kids anymore I can't fight your battles anymore so from now on only start battles you know you can win. I truly love my friends but like they say"if you love something let it go". You're free from my "judgment" and "bitching" as you so nicely like to put it and if that's what my friendship is to u then why are you my friend? Think long and hard before you comment on this or anything I post on FB because unless you want the world to know who you are and you want to man up and take credit for your wrong doings then don't comment. You can call me out on whatever you want but you better be honest because if you spread lies about me then that burning bridge will become our battleground and we will go down in flames together. Good Luck! Peace out thanks for reading.

WTF

WTF WTF WTF

I wish I could write all the things that are in my head but if I did then everyone would be mad at me and hate me. I don't care if people don't like me I just don't feel like listening to people defend their stupid ass decisions. I make mistakes but I don't blame everyone else for them. Some people in my life drive me up a damn wall most the time. I am so sick of being the bad guy because I can't help when you need it or because you ask my opinion on something then you don't like what I have to say. WTF people don't talk to no more I don't give a crap anymore. I'm sick of the stupidity of humans and how shallow people really are. I'm not dumb enough to fall for your guilt trips or to give you pity because you feel sorry for yourself. Grow up take responsibility for your actions and your decisions, stop expecting everything to be handed to you. Work for what you want and cherish what you need! I can't help people that won't help themselves. If you are not willing to work for things and try to help yourself then how do you expect others to help you. All you are doing is bringing the people that care about you down with you, and if you are ok with that or that is what you want then you are a pathetic waste of life. I try to be nice but I have come to the conclusion that people don't listen when I am nice so I'm gonna continue to be the bitch that I am very good at being and tell shit like it is. Anyone that is reading this that knows me knows I only have a few friends and most the time those few friends are too wrapped up in their BS drama that they can't get their heads out of their ass long enough to see that maybe they should approach life differently if the want something better in life. The funny thing about this is the people I really want to read this won't because they don't want to hear the truth so they never read my blog. I used to go out of my way to hang out with some of my closest friends until I realized it was a one way street that they don't visit me unless they need stuff or want to talk about their own BS but as soon as I start talking about something about myself they turn it back around so the conversation is all about them. I hope you get mad at me for the things I say because then you know how I feel and how shitty of people you guys really are. I don't care how many so called friends you might have but if they think you are the greatest friend in the world then either they have very shitty friends, or they are lying to you or the most likely thing is they don't really know you. I care deeply for my family and friends and I put their need above mine. You have no needs but your own and you claim to care but in the end it is all about how something can benefit you. I have offered to talk about our problems I have offered to help budget your finances to help you out I have been there when you needed a shoulder to cry on, now look back at all the ways I have tried to help make your life better and you just spit in my face then when your life is shit again you come to me for my help fuck you get yourself out of it without me this time and only then will you realize I wasn't being mean I was honest and tried to help you now that help is gone. The bridge is on fire and I don't know how to stop you from burning the last bridge you have to walk on. Good Luck!

Ups and Downs of Friendship

I have very few friends for very good reasons, but having very few friends means when someone dies or moves away you have even less. I don't trust easily or let people in without really getting to know them and even then I am not completely an open book. I don't make friends easily. The friends I have I have known for years, A LOT of years. We go thru ups and downs together and I am grateful for my friends because I am not an easy person to deal with. I am honest but sometimes my honesty comes off rude and judging. I don't judge everyone has the right to make their own decisions but if you ask my opinion about something I tell you exactly how I feel about it. Sometimes my opinion causes fights between my friends and myself but we never fight for long. I am always there for my friends and they are considered family in my eyes, but if you fuck me over too many times I will tell you were to go and forgiving I may do easy but getting my trust back is another thing. When I say I am done with someone that's it. That means I gave you countless times to make it up to me and all you have done is dug your grave. I am not a nice person I am also hard on people. That's because I feel people don't learn from kindness people need that firm hand in life that will be brutally honest with them and I have no problem filling those shoes. No one ever babied me nothing was ever handed to me and I feel like I'm a stronger person for that. People that have had everything handed to them don't know how to live on their own (truly on there own). I'm not saying these people haven't went thru hard times I'm saying that when life gets hard they turn to others to make it easier. Most my friends are like this and they don't even realize it. All my friends have went thru hard times in one way or another, I mean harder situations then most people could handle, they are all strong in their own ways. All my friends are helpful to me in one way or another. I feel like I am the mother type to my friends. I am the one that tells them that was a stupid idea while I let them cry it off on my shoulder. So as hard on my friends as I am they know I care and that I am the way I am and it all makes sense in the end. I'm not a religious person by know means (some of my friends are) yet I believe in astrology and I believe no matter what religion you are YOU have the power to change things. No matter what "GOD" you may or may not believe in we should all be understanding to each others beliefs. How does this have anything to do with my friends you may ask well my friends and I are of all different backgrounds and yet we never fight about religion, race, sexual preference, or any other thing that keeps people separated. We are who we are and we just accept each other as we are. Family isn't always blood it is love for people that may be different then you and that not mattering. So to all the people I call my true friends I love you and thank you for dealing with my crazy all these years.