Loneliness is like a scar it's always there to remind u that it will happen again. Love and happiness are intense at first but they fade and their potency lessens over time and then the dramatic feelings of worry and loneliness rush back like water threatening to drown you in your own life's problems. No matter how hard you cling to the love and happiness it slips thru your fingers you don't even see it happening until it's too late. That scar of loneliness haunts u and rears its ugly head in your weakest moments in life. As you worry about things it lingers waiting for you to break.
I try to make my loved ones happy but I fail over and over. My biggest problem is I have a picture in my head of how I want things to be but I can never get my real life to look like that happy picture. I'm at the point in my life where I just want to give up on ever having the life I want. Maybe my happy ending wasn't ment to be.
