talking to myself

This blog kinda makes me feel like a crazy person talking to herself. the funny thing is that it helps me to vent even if no one reads it or comments on it. I'm not sure why it helps I'm just happy it does. I so badly want to be happy with everything in my life but I'm not there yet there are a lot of unfinished things and unanswered questions and things that are out of my control. I feel like time is working against me. I get older and all the things i thought i would have accomplished at my age just haven't happened and don't seem to be within my reach at this time. Isn't it funny as a kid/teen you think of what you want to do as an adult and make all these plans and goals but then as an adult you just wish you could go back to being a kid. No ones dreams will ever come 100% true but i was hoping a few of mine would by now. I love my kids and my boyfriend and I am happy I have them in my life so don't take this as I am unhappy with them I am unhappy with myself for giving up or forgetting about the things i planed for myself and not sticking with them. So in the long run the only person to blame for anything is myself. so until next time my lovely readers peace out.